I’m not feeling moody any more.
My family is grateful.
Jorry started his job yesterday! It is so nice that he is working again and that we didn’t have to move. If there was one thing that I prayed about was that we wouldn’t have to move the girls again.
Since we didn’t move we were able to get Aly into her volleyball clinic. She started last night and has 4more nights to go. I wound up taking all of the kids with me and while it was uneventful except for Ace busting her lip, next time I will go without them. The gym they practice in has no place to sit and we were really in the way at one point. So as long as Jorry makes it home in time for us to get there he will have the 3youngest.
I have this post in my head that I really want to get onto the screen. I am really struggling with how much I say “no” to the girls. I’m also struggling with how much the daily upkeep of the house interferes with me just saying “yes”. I am afraid of that unexpected guest coming and finding my home in a shambles. And for some reason, even though I am not what I would consider and neat freak, clutter begins to bother me at some point and I fall into a bad mood and the state of the house becomes my focus instead of just enjoying my girls.
I don’t want to live in chaos, but I really don’t want my girls growing up and having only memories of me ranting about cleaning up after themselves, or getting things clean before we can do xyz.
I’ve got to find balance. Or maybe it isn’t acheivable with kids growing up in the home and I should just see the mess and clutter as evidence that we are alive and enjoy this one life we have.
Ok, Emi wants to cuddle on the couch so I will end here.