I haven’t blogged in a while because I just don’t feel like it.
Right now the financial aspect of life just sucks and it doesn’t look like it is going to get any better.
I’m tired of being in this place.
I’m tired of thinking things are getting better only to be knocked down.
I’m really tired of hearing that things will work out.
We have always been in a place of need and the one time it looked like we were finally crawling out of a hole we got that rug snatched out from under us.
I hate watching crooked people who don’t believe in a God or even just treating people right, continue to gain in life.
And please don’t tell me that they will get their’s in the end because even though I do believe in a heaven and a hell that doesn’t make me feel better now while I am in the midst of this.
It is May and Jorry hasn’t had a sale of a job yet. Neither has his boss. Guess who will get the axe if they need to cut back?
One customer said to come pick up a check and then called the very next day to cancel the whole project.
Another customer called and said they wouldn’t be able to do anything. When the market took the plunge in response to the stimulis plan another customer called to say that they wouldn’t be able to do anything because they lost half their retirement.
Now I hear that if this cap and trade junk gets pushed through then our state will be one of the hardest hit. Our family would see a $3900.oo a year increase in our utilities.
But wait we are getting that extra $11 a week in my husbands check that should help.
It’s not about being able to buy clothes from a department store or to have a new vehicle.
We shop consignment and goodwill and we did so even when we were making the good money in GA.
We were also snowballing our debt and our van is paid off.
It’s about being able to pay our bills on time. It’s about having a job where we can make ends meet with out depending on assistance.
I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m tired of always needing help. I want to be able to offer the help.
We are good people and yet for some reason we don’t seem to count enough.