So I’m sitting here rereading a post at ApplesforPoppyAnne and in that quiet moment I can feel my anger release. I am looking at the beautiful pictures on her blog and I tell myself that there is too much in life to experience. Being mad at God is only going to take away my creative energy. Energy that He has planted, placed inside me to share with my family and my friends.
I am still searching and questioning. Life is still upside down in regards to jobs, money and making ends meet. I still don’t think what I have been taught is totally correct. I will not apologize for being passionate about my families state. Whatever trials a person experiences is always relative. I would never tell someone that they shouldn’t feel the way they do because someone has it far worse.
I will be thankful for what I have. I was never not thankful, just to clarify. I will live each day in the moment because that is all I can do. I’m not sure when I will reach a healing in my spiritual life. I’m at the newborn stage and really am not in a big hurry to walk, or crawl for that matter.
Thank you for all the prayers and positive thoughts. I haven’t given up.
True religion is real living; living with all one’s soul, with all one’s goodness and righteousness. Albert Einstein